I Miss You

I
Miss
you
so
much
every
single
day!!

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Today is the day my life begins. All my life, I've been just me, just a smart-mouthed kid. Today I become a man. Today I become a husband. Today I become accountable to someone other than myself. Today I become accountable to you, to our future, to all possibilities that our marriage has to offer. Together, no matter what happens, I'll be ready. For anything. For everything. To take on life. To take on love. To take on possibility and responsibility. Today, Izzie Stevens, our life together begins. And I for one, can't wait.

Betrayal

BETRAY

Definition of betray: Betrayal is the breaking or violation of a presumptive social contract, trust, or confidence that produces moral and psychological conflict within a relationship amongst individuals.

It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.

We often look for someone that we can trust more than we can trust ourselves.
Perhaps this is because we know how often we betray ourselves.
I lately realized again that the people in my life who are the most trustworthy are those who tell the truth, even when the truth is hard.

When the trust that is important to us is broken, we feel hurt and angry.
If the trust is broken but we or the other person pretend that it has not been violated, we learn to distrust ourselves or party involved when the truth is revealed.

However, the real damage of betrayal is in the lies we tell one another and ourselves, the lies that cause us to lose faith in our ability to recognize and act on the truth.

However, in some ways, betrayal is inevitable. When we betray each other, the path to recovery is less clear. We do whatever it takes to rebuild the trust that was lost. And then there are some wounds, some betrayals... that are so deep, so profound that there is no way to repair what was lost. And when that happens, there's nothing left to do but wait.

These are the choices we make, consciously or unconsciously and yet ultimately, if we can be still enough with what is, we can find the place of choiceless awareness.

I want to know, can you do this?
Can you make the choice without putting yourself or the other person – out of your heart?

I need to make this decision. I need to take the leap of faith and put these people out of my heart for good – even when it hurts.
This pain – I just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, I just breathe deep and wait for it to subside.

Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass. And when the dam bursts, all you can do is swim. The world of pretend is a cage, not a cocoon. We can only lie to ourselves for so long.

I am tired; I am scared, denying it doesn't change the truth. Sooner or later I have to put aside my denial and face the world.
At the end of the day, there are some things I just can't help but talk about.
Some things I just don't want to hear and some things I say because I can't be silent any longer.

So this is it. My heart is broken by the betrayal and I need to make the choice in moving on and forget about it.